I think I’ve got it all figured out…

Okay. I forced myself to sit down and think. And here’s what I came up with: Life is SHITTY to people, but it’s meant to be that way. It builds character; it teaches lessons; it gives you stories to tell your grandchildren; it is a roller coaster ride you can’t get off of until the day you die. And you know what? I LIKE IT! Robert and I have had five years of turbulence and ups and downs and good times and bad and really good times and really bad times and we’ve been through hell in a hand basket and we’ve been through high water and rough patches and we’ve been through my cheating and his cheating and the bad sex and the good sex and the rocking and rolling orgasms that leave us literally wasted and we’ve been through the time I thought I had an STD (turned out to be a minor treatable-by-antibiotics infection) and through the time I broke up with him for Charles-the-asshole who smoked too much pot and dumped me right after I miscarried a baby he didn’t want and the time Robert dated Jaime-the-bitch who lied about being pregnant and tried to force him into a marriage he didn’t want and the time I miscarried a baby at 11.5 weeks when we’d been so excited and had put a down payment on a condominium and all of the bullshit from day one to today and you know what folks? I STILL LOVE HIM! HE STILL LOVES ME! So we got married…and we forgive and we may never forget but that’s what life’s about cause we learn the lessons and we move on and life goes on and the Luna baby girl who is the light of our lives? Well, she gets to benefit from two parents with mileage. We’ve been around the block a time or two; seen the tides go out and the tides come in; we’ve buried loved ones; gained and lost the faces of a thousand friends, and we’re still thriving. Love is compromise and moving on. Love is knowing that people make mistakes. Love is a never ending battle with the forces of good and evil within oneself and how you deal with your lover and their quirks and their qualms and, hell, event their quarks…lol. The point is…I figured it out! THE KEY! MY HAPPINESS DEPENDS ON ME! I could have the most perfect partner in the world who had never done ANYTHING to displease me, but I’d still be miserable if I didn’t love ME and I’d still find fault in the man. So Robert has made mistakes; it makes him EVEN MORE PERFECT…you know why? Because he knows what could go wrong; he knows what there is to lose. So tonight he is at work busting his ass to earn the rent money and the Sprint money and the electricity money and the cable money, the internet money, the home phone money…he’s trying to do right by his family. We all have stumbled…we all have fallen, but we get back up and we march right along and we stand at one another’s side, because that is love, that is family, and that is the key to life, liberty, and the pursuit of HAPPINESS!!!

Bible, I Corinthians 13
Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

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